Bumpy Start, Learning from the Lows and Healing.
Happy New Year!
Or well, it’s been a month now. But I still hope that you have had a good start to 2023! On social media the general notion seems to be that most people’s start to the year has been nothing short of disappointing. Or at least not having gone the way they had hoped. Bumpy Start, Learning from the Lows and Healing.
Bumpy start to “New Year, New Me”
“Sitting here writing this, I’m actually sick with the flu. You could argue that’s not exactly the perfect way of starting a new year. But honestly, to be ready for new and better, you’ve got to clean out the old rubbish. Which is exactly what I think my body is currently doing.”
Was what I started writing when covering my amazing start to the new year. The year 2023! My year! Or that was at least the intention. But lo and behold, things didn’t go quite as planned. So, it seems that I follow the trend to a T. When I was close to being healthy from my flu, I went to the dentist to get my teeth fixed. But little did I know that after that visit, I would be “blessed” with a round of Lockjaw. As I’m writing this, I still have pain and can’t open my jaw properly. But my amazing dentist is helping me out, so I’ll be back on my legs so to speak in no time. (So please don’t let my experience keep you from the dentist. Everything always works out!) But it’s safe to say, the start of my year has not cone as flawlessly as I would have expected.
Learn from the Low’s
But I’m a firm believer of everything happening for a reason. Call it fate if you will. Everything in life is an option for us to learn. Whether it’s an anxiety diagnosis, dropping out of university, or a round of lockjaw. We can’t always help what happens to us, but we do have every bit of control over what we decide to do with those experiences. We can let them define us or become wiser and shape our future the way we want to.
Whenever a small inconvenience would arise, for instance getting the flue, and all my plans suddenly coming to a holt, I would just drop everything. If things didn’t go according to how I imagined it, my immediate reaction would be “ugh, then it doesn’t matter anyway”. I would go right back to my old habits, that I was trying to change. But I have decided that this bumpy start to my new year, will not be stopping me this time. Don’t get me wrong, it’s completely okay to feel discouraged. I would be lying if I said I didn’t feel that way when my jaw “broke”. Because it isn’t about not being knocked down at all, but rather your attitude when rising back up.
I feel like that a general error in what many people try to preach; that life is not supposed to hurt. But facts are that almost everyone will experience some sort trials in their life. Trials that will hurt, be uncomfortable, knock you out of course, stop you in your tracks, or whatever. And honestly that pain should be felt, and not be ran away from.
Positive Reflections
But this delayed start to “the perfect year” has allowed my to do some reflections. Specifically, in regards to what I really want out of this renewed attitude. If you’ve read my last post (and If you haven’t you can give it a read here) it will not come as a surprise that I’m spiritually interested. The past paragraph probably also gave that away ;-P. But in addition to what I covered in my last post, spirituality for me is also an approach to healing trauma. I’ve not been super specific about the trauma I have from my childhood yet (I’m still working on accepting what happened fully). But through meditation journeys, I’ve become aware of how wounded and broken my feminine and masculine energies are. Bumpy Start, Learning from the Lows and Healing.
Healing my Feminine and Masculine Energies
Over these past couple of years, where I’ve worked with spirituality very consciously, I’ve been healing these two parts of me. But after this December (December 2022, where I was on a meditation journey), I’ve become aware of the healing I’m still missing on a much deeper level. Due to the trauma, I’ve experienced, particularly in my teens, my feminine side had been brutally suppressed and abused, while my masculine side had become overworked and toxic in efforts to keep myself and my inner child safe. If you are following my blog, I’m sure a lot of you can recognize parts of this.
We all contain both masculine and feminine energies. You can think of it like yin and yang. Meaning these energies ideally should be balanced. But when we experience trauma in life, one or both can get out of “sync”. This is where experience things such as toxic masculinity. To give an example, feminine energy entails intuition and creativity, whereas masculine energy covers discipline and proactiveness. Free flowing contra steadfast. Does it make sense? If these ideas have sparked an interest, feel free to do your own research! When I started opening up to these beliefs, everything in my being screamed yes, and my curiosity bloomed. Bumpy Start, Learning from the Lows and Healing.
I suppose what I want to say with all of this, is that my New Year, New Me Project will revolve a lot around healing my feminine and masculine energies. And not just that, my goals is to get more Intune with my Divine Feminine. So, expect blogposts and videos on my YouTube Channel in the future.
Let’s Do it Together!
If any of you guys are interested in any of the themes and topics I cover here on my blog, I would love it if we could support each other on this amazing adventure that is life. I’m currently creating a monthly newsletter that you guys can sign up for. I hope to include many cool features, for instance make it an option to get notified when blog entries of the topics you are interested in has been posted. However, the newsletter is still under maintenance, and I’m not quite sure when it will launch.
In the meantime, feel free to follow me on my social media! I really intend on becoming more active on there, sharing things/experiences I love. But I know, no matter how the future shapes out, things will unfold exactly like they’re meant to.
Let those be the words for now. Talk to you guys again soon!
Mie
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